we won't hear a word they say

I want change but I like consistency.
I dream for adventure but I can not be fucked moving.
I adore your smile but lately I don't get to see it often.
I need more time but I always waste it.
I get lost in the music but in your arms is where I belong.

THROW IT AWAY, FORGET YESTERDAY.
WE'LL MAKE THE GREAT ESCAPE.

the lights are turned on but everyones gone

Your words really changed everything this time.

Today, I built my husband

ROFL The title speaks for itself :) Meet my husband, Optimus Prime. My lover gave him to me for Valentines Day. Optimus Prime came in a box with Japanese instructions, it took me bloody 1hr 38mins to put him together D: But it was worth it, he looks hauntingly handsome ;D LOL

How was Valentines Day for all those couples out there? My lover and I ended up in good old Chinatown for dinner (Y) I unfortunately was stuck with sharkfin soup whiles he ate rice + salt&pepper squid + honey chicken! SIGH it was so depressing. He got me the Optimus Prime figurine and a box full of chocolate/lollies which is even more depressing because I can't even eat any of it :( It's sometimes hard to process, but I love my lover a truckload :D

Chinese New Years was alright, I wasn't in the mood for it this year. The excitement kind of wears off as you grow older. It's the same thing over and over again; family gatherings, lucky money, gambling, naps, karaoke etc. /shrugs CHUC MUNG NAM MOI BITCHES ;)











talk about photo spam :) hope all is well xx

it's one thing to say, another thing to do

i was looking forward to a fresh start to August. there's nothing special abt the 8th month of corse, it's just.. i got sick of July? LOL well gyeahs i thought it started off good. the 'ex - boyfriend' and i got back together. we were on a long period break and we TRIED to patch it up.

i thought everything was going well, i thought my world was be built once again.. until 6 hrs later, when everything came crashing down. i was actually looking forward to this, giving what we had another go, "we'll try to make it work". that line made me believe so, gave me hope. i got told that "we should just be friends". HANDS DOWN, THAT LINE FUCKN HURTS! it really hurts.. today was suppose to be our '16 months' (Y)

was going through a folder of photos of him and i, came across this.

made it in mid December 2008

i ended up making a phonecall to one of my closest friends and balling my eyes out. probs the first time i've done that to anyone, and i do hope i never have to >:( love hurts, it's a tad overrated. saying 'i love you' to someone and actually loving someone are two different things.

other than that, i took my little cousins to town today. took them to Morning Glory for sticker photos and down rundle street for some food and gelati :D and then we did a bit of shopping at Diva :) yeah, i felt the need to buy headbands /shrugs im glad i could spend a day with them, they get on my nerves but they're good kids. yeah we found this stall which was selling these awesome potatoe things.. THEY HAD CHEESE ON THEM! THEY WERE KILLAHHH! ;D

yeah, stfu D: my scanner died >:(

after coming home from town, the family decided to go out for dinner at some whackoo chinese restaurant. i dont eat pork or duck, so i just sat around flipping through chinese magazines whiles drinking tea! shouldve flicked my pinkie up (Y) LOL well anyhoo, when we were getting into the car:

vee: aunty, did you fart? it smells funky.. =="

aunty: .. no? .. BUT I NEED TO FART NOW

/lifts up bum and presses it against vee's leg
vee: NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! ..
/FARTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT
aunty: dw, my farts never smell
vee: ==" (Y)

mehs, maths studies test tomorrow, i've been too devo to study =\ mehs. shall find a way to past :D

you know you love me, xoxo

baby, i'm so torn apart

Missing. by xLadyDaisyx

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/sighs feeling very distressed atm. i miss my best friend and my old best friend. i miss being able to talk to them for hrs and hrs everyday without having silent moments, and with them understanding every single word that comes out of my mouth. i miss being able to make them smile and laugh with their eyes squinting together. i've moved these two people into my 'best friends' list as it felt like the level of trust and friendship was unbeatable, it felt like we could rule the world. i now sit here by myself, knowing that my 'best friends' have faded away; have taken a different path instead of sharing the same one with me. all there is left are footprints and a shitload of misunderstanding.

"i swear i wake up, baby thinking that i see your face.. everyday, i feel like i'm falling apart"

i miss Duymy. i dont have a category for him as i am extremely unsure of what he is to me. i dont know what happened to us, i wouldnt say our relationship was strong as a rock. but what i felt for him, was irreplaceable. i know i may not make any sense atm, but bear with me. it's been almost 2 months since we went on a 'break'. i do believe they are a waste of time, NEVER GO ON ONE! i made a mistake at the beginning by calling on one. we went for a week without talking and i couldnt handle it anymore, i had to call it off after. they say 'the couple that fights the most, loves each other the most'. we argued practically 5/7 days a week, and look where we are. i hate how i may act like i dont care anymore but inside i just crash and burn.. as long as he's happy.

other than all this depression talk. my father shoved two oranges in his jacket yesterday to make them seem like 'boobs' to cheer up my nephew :D it was pretty sweet (Y)

atm, madly in love with this song: Tim Benson - Meet Me Halfway ♥

you know you love me, xoxo

zoom zoom

my new love, the 2009 Bugatti Veyron 16.4 Grand Sport :) he's a smexy babe, and he's too fast too furious, just like myself. fastest car in the world /sighs love at first sight ♥♥♥ sadly, the vehicle is priced at.. wait for it.. 2.5MILLION OR ABOVE.

school tomorrow =\ i'm gonna try hard this term. get my shit done, eat more healthy and sleep like a bitch :D 40hr famine is coming up soon. im gonna do that, give up food for 40hrs (Y) did it in yr eight and wanted to shoot myself. was soo tiring D: mehs, ive been having all nighters all week, man.. i have to face my enemy later. the 6.40am alarm!

you know you love me, xoxo

brown m&ms

i once read somewhere that you're suppose to make a wish if you see the time 11:11. it's probs been a whole year.. nearly every night i have been wishing for the same thing over and over again.. wishing very hard for something to stay the way it is.. for the love and happiness to stay where it is and for time to stop.. love on the other hand is such a overrated word. it's used for all purposes and has so many meanings. i for one, use the word 'love' more than the word 'like'. often ranting on abt how i love this certain someone or something so much.. love does hurt though. i hate that i love 'love' :)

i spent my tuesday bored as fuck. i awoke at 11am swearing at myself for sleeping so much. i hate sleeping in.. cuz time flies.. and if i was to sleep until 1-2pm.. there goes half of my day? i hate wasting time.. even though most of the time theres barely anything to do. hrms. confusing aye? lol my report was suppose to come through today.. i waited and waited. and then went to the mailbox.. it wasnt there. then it hit me.. BAMS! IT GOT SENT TO MY PARENTS HOUSE! FUCK ME. hopefully no one opens it ==' i didnt exactly do my best and i'll probs be getting my first D or E this time! LOL

itunes: Thanh Bui - Mirror Mirror (it's half viet&english. it's killeh man :D)

mood: confused, frustrated, down, empty

from saturday night @ Semaphore; welcome to the good life. i felt like a drunk that night.. but all i drank was a shitload of lemon and lime Solo! LOL

'i dont know' seems to be the answer to every question these days. i dont know what i'm doing with my life anymore.. i have no goals and no ideas. no inspiration or motivation. i'm an emo child (Y) i hate winter with a passion.

you know you love me, xoxo

the getaway plan

it's been a tough week; full of screaming, tears and late mornings. i've become a deafie and can hardly hear my annoying alarm anymore D: therefore making me have to wait for the bathroom and missing the 225 bus. the 224 is such a turd in the morning.. full of the most annoy people and is the longest ride ever. i've also managed to sell all of my fundraising chocolates for St Vinnies :) i had 9 left and mom bought them all.. my mom's all abt raising money for the less fortunate (Y) i was counting the money before and came across a five dollar note with a speech bubble coming from i think.. Queen Elizabeth's mouth. oh it was terrific :D LOL

"I like it in the arse" ROFL ROFL ROFL :D

the weekend is over and i've spent it in the comfort of my own home, doing nothing. i watched Transformer ONE on saturday and i now am obsessed and also have the urge to stab myself for not watching it earlier! i saw a truck and opened my mouth and screamed OPTIMUS PRIME! D: also watched Confessions of a Shopaholic, which i would give a 6.5/10. its one of them movies where you would watch once.. but wouldnt want to watch it again for a very long time. and Marley & Me, 8.5/10. kinda draggy and long.. but i balled my eyes out when Marley died =\

hrms. work experience this week at Miss Gladys Sym Choon :) i am so not ready for it. i have no motivation like i did a whole 2 weeks ago and i have no clothes to wear! LOL i went to kfc to get lunch with a friend today and i pulled out my oldschool green FCUK flats back in 2007. i only wore them for 15mins and i came home with blisters ==' i now remember why i dont wear them anymore! LOLOL owned.

i've been pretty devo, i miss my 2008. when all my friends were a second family to me, when my boyfriend and i were 'happily together', when there wasnt so many family issues and when my skin wasnt so bad =\ 2009 is a dud.. and i hate everybit of it. i miss my old friends and my boyfriend and my family. i hate all this competition and arguements, swearing and anger. i miss laughing heaps and 'deep and meaningful' talks, i miss the late nights on the phone and the karaoke sessions. all are memories now.. /sighs

you once told me that you wanted to be the one who would put everything back together if my life was falling apart. eversince you left, my life came crashing down.. where are you?

you know you love me, xoxo

glue gun.

mood: confused, isolated, broken, depressed

listening to: Jackie Boyz - And the Band Plays

no matter how hard i try.. it's hard to go back to what it was before.

xoxo