He ate my heart and then he ate my brain

If you married the last person you texted, what would your last name be?
LMFAOOO! Nguyen²
Were you happy when you woke up today?
Kinda, the mister woke me up to turn off the alarm.. it wouldn't turn off =="
When were you on the phone last? And with who?
Like two hours ago, to my uncle. We're going to Medicare tomorrow (Y)
Have you talked to a complete jerk today?
Narh, don't think so. Well the chick at the bank was kind of bitchy, but mehs
What's a fact about the last person who text messaged you?
Hieu - She's just a tad under 150cm :)
Want someone back in your life?
Yes. There is more than one person :(
What are you excited for?
Hieu's 18th! WE GON' GET OUR FREAK ONNNN! LOL
What's the last thing you put in your mouth?
LOL! My finger, was picking something out of my braces :D
Are you scared to fall in love?
Mehs, love is love. So what if you fall and end up getting hurt, just get back up. You ain't no Humpty Dumpty bullshit!
Is there something you want to tell someone?
UYEN HOANG - Justin Bieber brings all the girls to the yard, and they're like "CAN YOU EVEN GET HARD?!" ROFL
Who was the last person you took a picture with?
Shan, Hieu and Joanne @ the World Vision convention
Is it easy to make you cry?
Chyeahs, I cry when I get frustrated.
Have you ever worn the opposite sex's clothing?
Sure do, way more comfortable than women's clothes =="
When is your next road trip?
/shrugs
Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?
I used to.
What’s your 3rd text say?
Hieu after watching the last episode of season 3 Gossip Girl - WHAT THE FUCK!? !@?*& SHIT OH MY GOD!! Did NOT see that coming, Fuck! No way!? MOTHERCHUCKER! Is there more to come :O I want to cry now. No way..
Have you ever stayed up all night on the phone?
Chyeah, back in the days when I could talk for ages LOL
Has anyone said they love you in the last week?
Yeahs :)
Have you ever laughed so hard you cried?
Not really. I dont make a sound when I laugh, it'll just look like I opened my mouth lol
Do you remember who you liked in 7th grade?
Sure do, he's a little feral now LOL
What time did you wake up this morning?
6.45am then fell asleep again, so 8.02am
What was the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?
Watched Gossip Girl and listened to music
Is there anyone who doesn't like you?
Yerps but I reckon they're like the fuckn coolest kid on the block :D LOL jk, SUCK MY WANG, HOMO!
Do you like to cuddle?
A lil' spoonin' and forkin' doesn't hurt anyone ;D
What do you hear?
Lady Gaga ♥
Liked someone older than you?
I don't dig younger guys D:
Any apologies from anyone recently?
Nope, but I did not too long before mmms
Do you hate the last girl you had a conversation with?
Cindy? LOLLER COASTER! Hell no, she's my lesbian partner ;)
Can you make a dollar in change right now?
Sorry brah, I've only got a fiddy dollah bill!
Have you ever kissed more than one person in 24 hours?
Yerps.
What is the last non-alcoholic beverage you had?
Boil water, I cn't drink cold water.. it hurts my teeth :(
When was the last time you cried?
Like an hour ago.
Last person you drove with in a car?
Momma and Pappa bear (Y)
What did you last buy?
This month's issue of Cosmo and Twix
Do you like Chinese food?
DO I? DOOOOOO I? HONEY CHICKAN IS DA SHIEEETTTTT!
Plans for tomorrow?
School, Medicare, phone call to Centrelink, sleep.
Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
Yes.. I got stuck =="
What are you wearing on your feet?
Socks :)
When was the last time you were told you were cute?
WHAT THE FOK?
Did you have a good day yesterday?
Yeah I did actually! Shogun was the highlight of the day LOL
What color shirt are you wearing?
Purple
Have you ever crawled through a window?
Yeah, during physics last year :D
Will this weekend be a good one?
Don't think so.. mmms
Who hugged you last?
Mmms, it was soo long ago since I got a hug so I don't know? lol
Is there one place you'd like to visit?
Tokyo.. DRIFT DRIFT DRIFT!
Is there someone that you believe you will always be attached to?
CHYEAH BOY! Optimus Prime, my number one ♥
What is something you disliked about your day?
The fact that I didn't find my purse and didnt have anything to do during my frees =="
How much cash do you have on you?
50.90$
If you could say something to someone without saying a name?
Yo' momma's chest hairs.
What's your current desktop picture?

Besides this, what are you doing?
Facebooking, Design theory homework lol
Are you easy to get along with?
Depends on my mood :)
When was the last time you felt like your heart was actually breaking?
I'm heartless.
Do you miss the way things used to be?
Fuck yes! Them days were the best..
Most memorable thing that happened to you last summer?
Tho Nguyen ♥

Stole this quiz off Sandy&Ann's blog, S&A :)
Been feeling quite down lately, I don't know what's up. mmmms

Unimaginable Pain

Do you have full on manipulative parents? Parents who don't give a fuck about what really makes you happy? They think that whatever they do is considered as 'doing the right thing'. And even if they know you don't like it or that it upsets you, they automatically think that you'll get over it.

My mother killed apart of me last night, a part that won't come back to me until a very long time; my photo wall. God knows what my mother has against my wall. Those who have seen it may think it's just a random display of photos taken within the pass few years. To me, my wall is a part of my life. It holds both negative and positive memories, memories which replay in my head as soon as it is seen.. almost like a library? My own personal library. The only thing that was worth coming back to this place everyday was this wall. It doesn't matter if I may had a fight with a family member which resulted to screaming and tears or a shitty day at school, I always knew that my wall would always, 100% guaranteed be there for me.

I had to destroy a part of me in order to make my mother happy. This morning I woke up, turned to my wall and felt useless as warm tears rolled down my face.

just shoot me

did i ever tell you that i absolutely hate my birthday? why? because every year that i become older, i get treated more like a prisoner. everyone makes mistakes, yet when i make them.. its like i murdered someone, the blood is still on my hands? everyone turns their back on me and refuses to trust me ever again..

i came home late today, 20 mins later than usual time. i blame the new bus route time table, the bus took forever to come. got into the house and my sister in law questions why i was late, i tell her the bus. as i walk up the stairs, she rants on about how i'm always lying? IM LYING? she rants on about how i'm always lying and thinking that shes stupid. i never lied to her. it takes fuckn years to get home, we've been through this before.

i've been down with a really sore throat and have been coughing a lot, i wouldnt call it a cold though. either way, thats been killing me. i get home, coughing liek a mad bitch, i then get accused of doing somethign that i didnt do, and get this.. /drum roll. I GET KICKED OUT OF THE HOUSE (Y) oh man, hands down it sucks to be me. so atm, i'm to finish yr eleven and then to move out.

i know my life may not be the worse at the moment, as there are other kids out there suffering from all different types of problems. but out of all the people that i know, my life would have to win the gold medal for beiing the biggest lump of shit. what pisses me off if that i get no say in anything, i have no time to explain nor does anyone bother to listen..

life is unfair ayes? i honestly can not put up with any of this. whenever i mention to anyone that i live away from my parents, with my siblings. they get hell jump and their faces fill with envy. complimenting on how lucky i am to be away from my parents and to be living in such a 'high class' area. its not, not when youre sister in law's a raging bitch with a aborignal spear up her fat ass.

oh my fuckn god. if i didnt have a soar throat and my voice was perfectly normal, i would stand at my balcony and yell at my fuckn drungo neighbor.. HE'S GOING OFF WITH HIS DRUMSET AGAIN! YOU CNT BLOODY PLAY YOU MORON =='

fuckn devo.

baby, i'm so torn apart

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/sighs feeling very distressed atm. i miss my best friend and my old best friend. i miss being able to talk to them for hrs and hrs everyday without having silent moments, and with them understanding every single word that comes out of my mouth. i miss being able to make them smile and laugh with their eyes squinting together. i've moved these two people into my 'best friends' list as it felt like the level of trust and friendship was unbeatable, it felt like we could rule the world. i now sit here by myself, knowing that my 'best friends' have faded away; have taken a different path instead of sharing the same one with me. all there is left are footprints and a shitload of misunderstanding.

"i swear i wake up, baby thinking that i see your face.. everyday, i feel like i'm falling apart"

i miss Duymy. i dont have a category for him as i am extremely unsure of what he is to me. i dont know what happened to us, i wouldnt say our relationship was strong as a rock. but what i felt for him, was irreplaceable. i know i may not make any sense atm, but bear with me. it's been almost 2 months since we went on a 'break'. i do believe they are a waste of time, NEVER GO ON ONE! i made a mistake at the beginning by calling on one. we went for a week without talking and i couldnt handle it anymore, i had to call it off after. they say 'the couple that fights the most, loves each other the most'. we argued practically 5/7 days a week, and look where we are. i hate how i may act like i dont care anymore but inside i just crash and burn.. as long as he's happy.

other than all this depression talk. my father shoved two oranges in his jacket yesterday to make them seem like 'boobs' to cheer up my nephew :D it was pretty sweet (Y)

atm, madly in love with this song: Tim Benson - Meet Me Halfway ♥

you know you love me, xoxo

butterflies

man, depression is kicking in hard. it rained today.. and i had the most whacked dream but its not as whacked as the dream my guy friend had. he had a dream that he got head.. FROM ANOTHER GUY! ROFL mehs there was another part to it but i forgot. /sighs the rain makes me feel ten times more lazy than i already feel. i hate it when everyone around you is smiling and is all joyful, yet you have NOTHING to be joyful about. you cant laugh cus you dont find anything funny, and you cant talk to anyone cus they're all off in their own world. gosh, it feels like the right time to find a shovel and dig a hole.. and bury myself in it D: i needed comfort food today; 2 chuppa chups, 4 coffee lollies, 2 glasses of lemon juice, 2 pandan buns (these killeh sweet buns), half a whopper and 3 cupcakes! horrible.

made cupcakes with the younger cousins, they looked a tad mehs but they were pretty killeh! :)

one week of holidays have past, and i have dont JACKSHIT. /sighs time to find something to do! =\

you know you love me, xoxo

the getaway plan

it's been a tough week; full of screaming, tears and late mornings. i've become a deafie and can hardly hear my annoying alarm anymore D: therefore making me have to wait for the bathroom and missing the 225 bus. the 224 is such a turd in the morning.. full of the most annoy people and is the longest ride ever. i've also managed to sell all of my fundraising chocolates for St Vinnies :) i had 9 left and mom bought them all.. my mom's all abt raising money for the less fortunate (Y) i was counting the money before and came across a five dollar note with a speech bubble coming from i think.. Queen Elizabeth's mouth. oh it was terrific :D LOL

"I like it in the arse" ROFL ROFL ROFL :D

the weekend is over and i've spent it in the comfort of my own home, doing nothing. i watched Transformer ONE on saturday and i now am obsessed and also have the urge to stab myself for not watching it earlier! i saw a truck and opened my mouth and screamed OPTIMUS PRIME! D: also watched Confessions of a Shopaholic, which i would give a 6.5/10. its one of them movies where you would watch once.. but wouldnt want to watch it again for a very long time. and Marley & Me, 8.5/10. kinda draggy and long.. but i balled my eyes out when Marley died =\

hrms. work experience this week at Miss Gladys Sym Choon :) i am so not ready for it. i have no motivation like i did a whole 2 weeks ago and i have no clothes to wear! LOL i went to kfc to get lunch with a friend today and i pulled out my oldschool green FCUK flats back in 2007. i only wore them for 15mins and i came home with blisters ==' i now remember why i dont wear them anymore! LOLOL owned.

i've been pretty devo, i miss my 2008. when all my friends were a second family to me, when my boyfriend and i were 'happily together', when there wasnt so many family issues and when my skin wasnt so bad =\ 2009 is a dud.. and i hate everybit of it. i miss my old friends and my boyfriend and my family. i hate all this competition and arguements, swearing and anger. i miss laughing heaps and 'deep and meaningful' talks, i miss the late nights on the phone and the karaoke sessions. all are memories now.. /sighs

you once told me that you wanted to be the one who would put everything back together if my life was falling apart. eversince you left, my life came crashing down.. where are you?

you know you love me, xoxo