cooler than me

10 THINGS THAT ARE BUGGING ME AT THE MOMENT.

1. Broken promises. If you promise to do something or even just say you'll do something, fuckn do it. Actions Speak Louder Than Words.

2. Guys in uber tight skinny jeans. No offense to the girls who dig this style and guys who actually go with this style. Usually I believe that every style is unique but really? You really think guys who show off their twig-like legs in these skin-tight jeans attractive? Hrms.

3. Flies & Mosquitoes. The disadvantages of warmer weather :(

4. My driver instructor. Bitch stood me up, didn't pick up nor return my calls and has not bothered to contact me at all. He contacted my cousin and picks her up for her lessons.. yet he left me waiting for 1.5hrs the other day. WHAT IS THIS?!

5. Clogs. Enough said, they ugly. /shakes

6. Being broke. So many things to buy, soo less money in the purse! I never really liked shopping, finding clothes that fit me properly was a pain. But now that I have found clothes that fit me.. I have no mullah. lol

7. Girls who have a boyfriend but leave other guys on the hook. It's not fun, man. Hearts get broken into a thousand pieces and it's gonna take them ages to put the pieces back together. It's also a tad unfair for the boyfriend /shrugs Love Hurts.

8. Racist cunts. Honestly, there are lines that people cross. Some fuckers just go overboard. Yeah sure I'm racist at times, dissing my friends because they're a certain race.. but I know when to stop.

9. Judge mental people. If you don't know then just shut the fuck up. I hate people who call things 'shit' just because its different to what they're use to. Like the other day, some girls commented on the music that I listen to as 'shit asian music'. ITS FUCKN USHER, BITCH! Like what the fuck?

10. Haters. If you have a specific reason to hate someone.. then go ahead. But if youre gonna be hating on someone and not be able to come up with a reason, get a life babe. I got people hating on me because of who I'm dating now, I'm sick of it aye.

far far away sounds good to me

I'm not going to apologize for what I've done and for who I've become. Being able to be me is what makes me comfortable, what makes me happy.. yet you all want to take that away. You want me to change just because I don't fit in your jigsaw puzzle, because I don't fuckn satisfy your expectations. Why do you even bother keeping me around for? Fuck.

hey now, hey now

Life's isn't easy but it ain't hard either, but there are people out there who just have a fucken cry about everything! Yeah alright, what I said may have been offensive but honestly, man the fuck up and take some time out and think about why I actually said them things. You have the time to be saying 'think about how it's going to affect and hurt the people around you', well no shit Sherlock. I think you should do some thinking to. I had my reasons; you need some serious help, kiddo (Y)

Oh Really? .. FUCK UP!

EUGH! Why are you trying to be a fuckn smartarse? I don't give a fuck if you're making so much money now and that you're blowing off hundreds on branded sunglasses and handbags. Don't be assuming shit when you don't even know what's going on. Take a step back, breath and think. Think of all the shit that you've done and the words that you're barking out at me. Fuck! Don't think you're a fuckn exception, don't act like you know everything. Get The Fuck Out!

Yeah, I'm annoyed. Annoyed at.. /drum roll.. my sister. She's a douche! I'm in the rumpus room and she storms into my room and goes through my desk for a calculator. I tell her that i don't have one that works, she manages to find one and then yells out.. 'Does this woooooork!?' FOR FUCK SAKES WOMAN! YOU STORM INTO MY ROOM AND GO THROUGH MY SHIT, YOU'RE BLOODY 30 YRS OLD, CAN'T YOU TURN IT ON AND FIND OUT YOURSELF! I try my best not to be rude, 'I dont know, you're the one whose in my room, you tell me!' Yeah, bitch storms out complaining that I have anger problems. Would you say I overreacted? =="

Other than my bad mood, HAPPY 17TH ELLIE! Loverrr you :)

Seeyou later fuckers, xx

we have to take our clothes off, we have to party all night

5 weeks of school has past and I have not done jackshit ==" NOOOO MOTIVATIONNNNNN! sigh soo all last week, I've been running around worrying about my food&hospitality assignment; come up with a desert and main+salad and make it with a partner. Julie and I made 'Cheesecake Brownies'+white chocolate strawberries and oysters+greek salad. The brownies were edible but still a fail, they came out too dry and the chocolate burnt D: BUT the white chocolate strawberries were ORGASMIC! no joke, those who haven't not tried it, buy a box of strawberries (medium sized, not too big) and some white cooking chocolate; melt the chocolate, dip the strawberries in and leave aside to set. Do multiple layers of chocolate because it'll just go transparent, you;ll know what I'm on about when you make it (Y) The oysters+greek salad was fair alright, was disappointed with the size of the oysters.. THE WERE THE SIZE OF YOUR BIG TOE! HORRIBLE.

Weekend has been fair alright, did not go out. Sister-in-laws becoming a grumpy caveman again, she's been giving me attitude all weekend zzz Saturday morning; volleyball game.. PISSED THE FUCK OUT OF ME! Some of the girls came late and we had to forfeit. FUCKKKAAAA YOOOOOOOU! D: The crashed at the mister's house then went home, chilled, then the childhood bestfriend came over, then the mister came over.. then my whole family came over. Good old bonding time (Y) LOL Spent the rest of the night just gossiping and catching up over some Cadbury Rocky Road :D Received a phonecall at like 3am, don't you just hate it when you find out that your ex is running around town acting like a tough cunt :) douche!
4 MORE WEEKS TIL HOLIDAYS :) xx

anger management

MOTHERFUCKER!

the quote for two days in a row was "i'm so angry!" i was angry. and i still am.. and what pisses me off is that i cant do anything about it. all i can do is just sit around and watch it happen. the other person's not gonna even offer to prevent it from happening because there are excuses. i was angry because the things i've done for this person cant be appreciated. i hurted a close friend of mine because i considered this person's feelings, yet they cant do the fuckn same for me. but now.. even though i'm angry and i dont understand why it's so hard to do certain things.. i'm trying to get over it. i'm trying very hard. but everytime i'm reminded.. i just want to break or throw a hard object aganist someone or something. i cant find anything to do to release anger. what do you do when you're angry? i need ideas on how to release, i need to let go =='

"yeah, whatever makes you fuckn happy, whatever i say doesnt fuckn matter anyways"